M.Deezy

1st September 2011

I suck

Soo I haven’t been on here in forever. Idk who’s reading this right now or who even really cares. But I’ve just been feeling so frustrated with everything lately so I guess I’m just going to let it all out on here. I haven’t felt the way I do right now in so long and I hate it. I hate myself. I regret all the mistakes I made because they created who I am today. I hate the me that’s here today. I hate how I’m feeling and I wish I could just stop myself from feeling so pathetic/dumb/vulnerable/ect. I don’t want anything more than to just get away right now. All of my friends have stopped being friends with me. Soooo all my frustration now just quickly turned into anger thinking about what shitty friends I have. I have not a clue why most of my “friends” aren’t friends with me anymore. If you had a problem with me, you could have just straight up told me instead of just ignoring my texts and calls but then turning around and telling other people that you “miss me and wish we hung out more this summer.” I mean I understand I can be a huge bitch sometimes and that could have been what drove all my friends away but I don’t mean to be. Then again, I suppose if my “friends” stopped associating with me because of that then they weren’t really true friends in the first place. And to my “boothang.” Yeah, fuck you too. I know I’ve been in denial with myself for awhile thinking that I actually meant something to you, but in the end all I was to you was a piece of ass. I’m so done with everyone from my past. Now all I need is the people here in my present. My one and only true friend, Danica, and my family are all I need. Peace the fuck out to everyone else. I could care less about you now.

Oooh wow. I feel a ton better now just letting everything out. Okay, now I’m going to sleep forever. Bye

13th November 2010

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. Speak Spanish to me (;

2. Joke with me, don’t take me too seriously :P

3. Sing to me

4. Do something spontaneous for me

5. Make me food :D

6. Give me a message <3

7. Call me out of the blue & say something sweet (:

8. Play DBZ with me ! <3

11th November 2010

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. You’re a real bitch, but I love yoou <3

2. Thank you for always being there & putting up with my bullshit (:

3. The times we’ve spent together were amazing. I’m really glad I met you

4. You’re amazing & I would love to date you (:

5. You seriously have daddy issues ….

6. I wish things could be different between us.

7. I would seriously looove to punch you in the face one day

8. Can I just kiss you? Like seriously?

9. No more Greg’s house for us, too much eating there…

10. You gave up on us, bitch.

11th November 2010

:D :D :D

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

29th August 2010

My love<3

I miss being with you, I miss talking to you, seeing you, & cuddling with you every day. It all went by so quickly. It sucks how we have to be so far apart. Life just isn’t the same without you. I wish I could be with you during the school year. It’s okay cause I know I’ll be seeing you soon. I love you; forever & always. DN.

27th August 2010