I suck
Soo I haven’t been on here in forever. Idk who’s reading this right now or who even really cares. But I’ve just been feeling so frustrated with everything lately so I guess I’m just going to let it all out on here. I haven’t felt the way I do right now in so long and I hate it. I hate myself. I regret all the mistakes I made because they created who I am today. I hate the me that’s here today. I hate how I’m feeling and I wish I could just stop myself from feeling so pathetic/dumb/vulnerable/ect. I don’t want anything more than to just get away right now. All of my friends have stopped being friends with me. Soooo all my frustration now just quickly turned into anger thinking about what shitty friends I have. I have not a clue why most of my “friends” aren’t friends with me anymore. If you had a problem with me, you could have just straight up told me instead of just ignoring my texts and calls but then turning around and telling other people that you “miss me and wish we hung out more this summer.” I mean I understand I can be a huge bitch sometimes and that could have been what drove all my friends away but I don’t mean to be. Then again, I suppose if my “friends” stopped associating with me because of that then they weren’t really true friends in the first place. And to my “boothang.” Yeah, fuck you too. I know I’ve been in denial with myself for awhile thinking that I actually meant something to you, but in the end all I was to you was a piece of ass. I’m so done with everyone from my past. Now all I need is the people here in my present. My one and only true friend, Danica, and my family are all I need. Peace the fuck out to everyone else. I could care less about you now.
Oooh wow. I feel a ton better now just letting everything out. Okay, now I’m going to sleep forever. Bye
